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I lost my confidence... by ~writing-the-WORLD:iconwriting-the-WORLD:



For one long year you tortured me
My life a living hell
Each day you tormented me and pushed me to my shell

Your words were wounds
Wrapped in my skin
Seeping within
I see you grin
You laugh at my tears for eternal years

I cried myself to sleep each night,
Worn and weary from losing each fight.
I longed for the day when you were not there
for then I could wear that thing in my hair
Without fearing what you would say

You drove me away
I swore not to stay
I saw you glare and I hated it there

I lost my confidence, you lost my trust
I lose myself and run as I must

Each day I dreaded coming to school
You thought the teasing made you look cool
No-one else knew what I went through,
No-one else cared,
Instead they all stared,
At the spotty, greasy-haired, shy little girl.

Next year came and you let me be,
I thought, "Wow! Now I am free!"
But instead of the torments, I was completely ignored,
Ignored by those I had once adored

I lost my confidence, you lost my trust
I lose myself and run as I must

I looked up to you, you looked up to me
When third year came I learned how to flee
Flee from those whom once I knew,
In fleeing from those, I flew from you

Your words, sharp as arrows, cut me deep
Four years later, the blood still seeps
Closed wounds open for all to see
Leaving scars on my soul for eternity

You drove me away
I swore not to stay
I saw you glare and I hated it there

I lost my confidence, you lost my trust
I lose myself,
and run as I must.
©2007-2009 ~writing-the-WORLD
:iconwriting-the-world:

Author's Comments

... the reason I changed schools...
The full title is "I lost my confidence, You lost my trust" but there wasn't evough space to fit it in at the top.
It was four years ago now (almost 5); that's four years of thinking about it every day; only now have I thought to write something about it & it felt so good :) still doesn't take away the feeling tho, but life goes on!! =P

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:iconsejongkim1979:
Wow, very well written.

I feel for you, friend. Bullying is cruel, illogical and all too common in schools. It really is too bad that people can be such selfish ignorant jerks. I want you to know though, that idiots like them are way outnumbered by people who want to help, you need only ask. Yes, life does go on but it's good to continue to heal those wounds through your writing!

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If a miracle occurred, I would show you the new morning, the person I've become and say those words I couldn't back then... -Yamazaki Masayoshi "One More Time, One More Chance"
:iconblanzeflor:
Great poem. It speaks for a lot of us--even decades later!

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"A sad, crazy, illogical dream, this life..." SejongKim1979 [link]

A dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world.--Oscar Wilde
:icondrenchedinmypain:
I kno exactly what you mean....I felt like this in year 7...and I moved school and I am now more than half way through year 9...and even though I've been fine in this school...the memories are there....
sometimes I think there's something to learn from these experiences...
x x x

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life isn't about what you get,it's about what you give.
:iconwriting-the-world:
I'm glad you feel ok in the school you're at now, & hopefully the memories will fade sometime, for both of us... & yeah; theres always stuff to learn from every experience be it good or bad

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:iconbunnyfugger:
Powerful work, all too familiar as well, and I'm 42, brings it all back home.
Well written, and well survived

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"No time for the old in and out; I've just come to read your meter"
:iconswimstarguy:
I liked how it was, in a way, general enough that many people could relate but it also hinted at specific things to make it personal anyway. Nice job.


~Zar4

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